It is that time again, where we get to reflect on how we've handled the year, but before all that i must mention 2020 has taught me a lot. Both the good and bad in an ugly way. Calling my best friends number a day after we spoke and i get messages like "...we are actually from his funeral!!" was too much for me.😢😢😢😢😡 I think when the things you like go away, you die a little bit inside, and it takes a long time for you to feel okay again. and at this point in time the words of Kayla Krantz have always been in me, "It's been so long, I don't remember what okay feels like.” As Nina LaCour in his book Hold Still puts it there used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.” Another importa...